| | When mind shattering events happen to me, my world turns upside down. I'm busy, but not quite busy. I've got this indescribable itch at the back of my mind that fuels me to lose sleep, sit straight up in bed, and instantly wonder why the hairs on the back of my neck bristle. I've got some theories on this.
One, my camera gear, but I cannot go into this without first going into an even bigger situation in my head. The thing is, photojournalism is this huge like, calling for me I guess you could say, I've got my whole college career planned for it for this August. In fact, my whole Junior and Senior year in high school kind of slammed me right into it. You make these awards and you intern with your mentors, and you learn. And it just so happens that your good at it. Apparently shockingly good. I'd be a fool not to go right? I was talking to one of my friends Dad last night, amazing guy, has had experiences and goals that make me feel like a two year old with him. Back to the bike: The bikes not even worth it, its totalled, in fact, I'm kind of scared to get on the thing again. No not all bikes, I'm getting another, but that particular bike, it'll never run true again. So I'm gonna part the bike out and sell it through ebay. I'm looking at having it ripped apart and crated in 4 hours with my friends dad.
ANYWAYS, sorry for getting so side tracked. The other day, I made this layout for the Shreveport motorsports store, who will be working with me on the new bike. I sat down, plugged head phones in, and cranked that layout out with 4 versions of it in 4 hours. Here's the scary part. I loved every minute of it. Never noticed that my back ached from not moving and staring at the screen as my graphics took shape. I finished, and stretched, and looked on it like you would a son or daughter, and was extremely proud. Whys that scary? It's not at all what I was planning on doing for a career, but I can see it as such a profitable and lucrative career path, I'd be foolish not to pursue it.
the layout
But wait, I'd be foolish not to pursue Photojournalism right? I mean, awards... internships... connections in Dallas... its all there, and I'm only 20, I'd be a moron not to go and follow my dream there, the path is so paved for it already, and I could become one of the greats that everyone knows about and make a ton of money taking pictures right? The thing that shook me was this: you marry that career. Its 12 - 16 hours a day depending on how hella-awesome and in demand you are. You go to hell and back for some assignments, and sometimes you do nothing for the job.
But, I'd still make a guaranteed 2x as much doing web design, and I do like it. I like it so much I can sit down and crank the pages out, even whittle away on 40 pages of code and actually enjoy that nitty picky part of web design. I know, isn't that just sick, haha. Anyways, I'm shaken right now because I have no idea what I want to do... -once again-.
Me and my brother have discussed it, and we know we could corner the market here with webdesign. There's no one here in the NW Louisiana area that can beat what we can do, and once we get our name out with Shreveport Motorsports, we won't have a problem making the contacts and credibility we need to make. I could very well take this software that we are making for them, and make so much money reselling it with my brother that I'd never have to work a day again for the rest of my life. Software Licensing anyone? Haha. Beautiful thing is, we're making it so modular that we can resell it in a day with a complete re haul of graphics, it'll never look the same twice, but it'll always be able to do everything that a store would need it to do. Inventory tracking, ordering, shipping, credit cards, service times and tracking, all of that. Rinse and repeat and we're making too much money ya know?
What a freaking dilemma, and all I really want right now is my motorcycle, or heck, -A- motorcycle again.
-Ken |
